It's been a long time since I've written anything on this blog, and honestly, I'm not sure what I'm going to say in this one. Hopefully I don't end up saying something that will embarrass either myself or Alisa.
So today is August 15, 2010 - and it's the day after our 2 year anniversary. Like Alisa said on Facebook, it went by extremely quickly, but it seems like there never was a moment that passed by that we didn't know each other. I think temple marriage works in both ways. It doesn't only go forward into time, but it feels a lot like it moves backwards just the same. The more time I spend with Alisa, the more it feels like we've always known each other and we've always loved each other. Even when I think back to memories that I have where I didn't know her, it feels like I was just waiting to find her.
Recently we spent some time at her Dad's house, and we looked over some of the pictures that her Dad has on his computer. Most of which were pictures of relatives that have passed on. It was interesting and it was really cool to see Alisa light up just a little bit when she got to see some pictures of her ancestors. When we opened up a folder of just pictures of Alisa though, something really cool happened.
I saw pictures of Alisa throughout elementary school, middle school, and into high school. As I was looking at these pictures, I knew that when the pictures were taken, Alisa had no idea I existed, and likewise, I had no idea she existed. But as I was looking through the pictures, it felt like I was in love with her just as much then as I am right now. It's like we were always belonging to one another, but we just didn't know it yet.
And, in my head, I know there were other girls I dated and even cared about before Alisa, but at the same time it feels like there was nobody before her. Just like there's nobody after her.
And in a sense that's true. Because there's never been anybody like Alisa, and there never will be anybody like Alisa. The moment we met all she did was look up at me and smile, and that smile changed my life forever. It was like I knew, way back then, that we would be together forever.-- I remember, someone once asked me how I knew that Alisa was the one, and all I could think to myself is that somehow I always knew. It was like, throughout my whole life, all I was doing was waiting for her, and when she smiled at me, something deep down inside knew I had found her.
Only a week or so after we met and first started dating, we decided on what song would be "our song" - there's several different versions of it, so I won't say who it's originally from, but I will put down the lyrics.... Enjoy.
All my little plans and schemes,
lost like some forgotten dreams.
Seems that all I really was doing
was waitin' for you.
Just like little girls and boys,
playing with their little toys.
Seems like all we really were doing
was waitin' for love.
Don't need to be alone, No need to be alone.
It's real love, it's real, Yes it's real love, it's real.
From this moment on I know,
exactly where my life will go.
Seems that all I really was doing
was waitin' for love.
Don't need to be afraid, No need to be afraid.
It's real love, it's real, Yes it's real love, it's real.
Thought I'd been in love before,
but in my heart I wanted more.
Seems like all I really was doing
was waitin' for you.
Don't to be alone, No need to be alone.
It's real love, yeah it's real,
It's real love, it's real,
Yes, it's real love, it's real,
It's real love, it's real,
Yes it's real love, it's real,
It's real love, it's real,
Yes it's real love, it's real,
It's real love, it's real,
Yes it's real love....
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